I am processing something very deep and painful at the moment and it all spilled out in my journaling this morning.
Ah my journaling…
The thing that I KNOW helps me to calm my mind…
The thing I tell EVERYONE else to do because I know how powerful it can be…
And yet…
The thing that I’ve been neglecting recently out of fear, if I’m being honest. Fear and an unwillingness to do what is necessary to create the change I want!
But most days I can kid myself that I don’t have the time…nothing to say…and anyway, life is pretty great actually so maybe I don’t need to look at my dreams and the things that scream from my soul…
And of course that is utter bollocks!
Even as I write this I am fearful of what others will perceive…What conclusions they will draw from it.
And yet…
I share
Because it will help someone else?
Yes…
Perhaps…
Maybe…
Well…ok no not REALLY…
I share because to speak it out loud is to RELEASE it from my energy.
I share because I am no longer available for being this version of myself that only goes so far…
The version of me who seemingly does everything that is required without actually doing ANYTHING of real substance…
The version of me who allows herself to be pacified by writing something empowering and thought provoking in her journal…
The version of me who is already thinking about what people might say when she hits ‘publish’ on this post…
The version of me who hopes it is accepted…who will look for the likes and the loves and the comments saying that I spoke to someone’s soul and made their day better!
Ok…well I hope I DO make your day better! And of course I hope that through sharing I help at least one more person deal with the shit that is dragging them down!
But more than that and even BEFORE that, I claim that change for myself. And I claim it with no feelings of guilt for being selfish. No beating myself up behind closed doors.
I claim it with love. Pure and simple!
So with all that said, here is what came up for me this morning…
Your anxiety can make it hard for you to deal with messy situations. If the path to resolution isn’t clear it can make you want to run and hide. Perhaps this is why you find it so hard to understand how someone can still love you when you have made a mistake. When you got it wrong.
Yes…anxiety can make this hard to deal with…
But…
Don’t for one minute believe that you don’t have the power to change, or to choose a different outcome.
Don’t for one minute hide behind that anxiety!
It’s not the reason you don’t have the life you want…it’s the PROOF you don’t have the life you want!
This is your wake up call!
People will forgive you for doing wrong, but none of that matters if you can’t forgive yourself!
The belief that you’re powerless is exactly what is keeping you stuck!
Change is ALWAYS possible!
Pain and struggle is NOT always inevitable!
Stop looking everywhere around outside of yourself for the answers…
…they are already within you!
Stop panicking…
Be still…
Ask…
And listen!
You know what to do!
Lilli xxx
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